Who Needs FriendsWho needs friends, I ask myself as I hide my feelings and reveal a smile.
Tuck inner emotions away, safe from display
Understanding that no one will and with that
I must make my peace
Though uneasily making plans
That I know won't pan out
Because no day is a good day
When you're walking through the valley
of the shadow of death
Who needs friends, I ask myself
When I can't find the words, or the courage to say
No
When I can't find the motivation or the energy
to go
When the bills come fast, but the money comes slow
And the last thing I need to do is shop, club, dine, drive, spend, chill, or explain myself to a
jury of my peers who need a valid argument as to
why I didn't have the means to dress for the occasion
When my life is falling apart behind closed doors
I ask myself, who needs friends when I'm
Forced into a corner because of circumstances out of my control
The only thing that sustains me and gives a great excuse is work
But when I look into the faces of the people I hold close
I ask myself, who needs friends?
When I got fired, and you got a raise
When I'm getting blame, and you get the praise
When I can barely eat, and my mind's in a daze
When it's raining outside and my only protection is a wet blanket
And a whimper comes out in the place of a holler
What's in store for my life, must be planned down to the dollar
And people wonder why I'm nowhere to be found
How can I explain it this time around?
I'll be there, I say and hang up the phone
There's nothing close to the feeling of being alone
And when I cancel again and again and again
And get up the energy to try to blend in
Conversation is light, yet I'm crying within
It's then that I ask myself
Who needs friends
...like me?