The Dance

I used to rhyme about boys
Dirty shirts and raised fists
Sneaky smiles hidden behind
A mother's long skirt
And a father's shrinking shadow
And when I rhymed about love
It followed me
Ready to swallow me whole
But now the confident steps
Of a man will forever hold my attention
And from this point forward
Send tingles down my spine
still I keep my distance

The fear of getting lost
Has materialized
And I realize
It is not my world anymore

I used to rhyme about love and loss
But now I dance in circles
Around everything
and hide my frustration in beauty
Continuing the echoes from years past
Years that I have long forgotten
Or deliberately remember

My only real problem is hidden
between the spaces of everything
I know

And in this way, it is invisible
To everyone but me
Flows around me, flows through me
Flows past me,
but never to me

Just the mention of its name
Gives the idea of simplicity
But only in my case

I trust the Lord
But this does not stop me from wanting
The obvious solution

Never needed a man's remedy
Suggestions and encouragement
Remind me of how alone I am
Just a strong, silent shoulder
When I need it
When I want it
Too much to ask
So I've been told

Within a complicated world
I draw simple pictures
Of clouds and smiling suns
In which I dance and dance and dance
Around trees, and flowers and everything

Never been bitter

I never been bitter
Nah, not me, I laugh and pause
What me? No, never that
To think that you would be the cause
Of something just so
I don't know
It makes me want to just explode
From the inside out
My insides boil
with the thoughts of what I gave you
I made you spoiled
And you, you,
You you'll never know
But I don't care
I've moved on so...

It's not enough, you're still alive
On top of that it seems you thrive
You know, I'm out here
All alone
Well not alone
Just, nevermind
But still again, it seems your fine
I wish that God would strike you blind

I was the best you'll ever lay
You should be crying every day
You're trying to be
I'm already there
And you left me?
Baby, oh contrare

I never been bitter
but yes, I'm sweet
Some guys would pay
To kiss my feet
Scratch that
They'd pay to suck my toes
And you left me
For other hoes
And then complain
You deserve what you get
I hope the next girl treats you like shit

I never been bitter
I've never been better
My joy is your pain
And your pain is my pleasure
Your treasure was lost
But why can't you see that
You must wallow in it
Wallow, wallow, wallow

For the rest of your life
For my sake

...okay, maybe I'm a little bitter