Friday, June 02, 2006

WE or YOU

Your mangled words confuse me
Your fading light grows dim
I'm victim to your winding path
Enslaved by your every whim

I voiced my main concern
On this we both agreed
But little did I know my words
Would set a trap for me

A once spurned girl with cautious precision
I looked before I lept
But my amateur moves were not a match
To a man's calculated steps

I told myself that once is enough
And that I could not be fooled twice
I guess an attempt to make myself tough
If I was to be burned again, I wouldn't be very nice

But here you come and there I go
Suspicion in my eye
Only sparked by the whispered words
Exchanged when you walk by

Attempting to believe
I want to believe you
I know what I see
Every time that I see you

But I'd hate to believe
That I've joined a long chain of girls
That you may have deceived...or just fucked
It's only fair, that I am scared considering my luck

I've already opened myself up to you
Too late to take that back now
So my only option is to wait
And wonder if you'll hurt me and how

So my presence withers
My request at its simplest
My insides shiver
Please please please baby, don't turn me into a statistic

Don't do this to me
Find someone else first
Someone that has the energy left
To have it beaten out of her

Like a feeble old woman, like an abused child
My insides cry out
And my body cries
Out loud

With all of my trust
I throw sisterly love at the possibility
That it isn't just
lust

Am I special to you?
Do I carry something a little extra in your eyes?
I must ask myself
For once, can I be a man's prize?

I don't want to ask anymore
But I am still curious
At the end of the day
I breathe and I pray
Which is all that I can do
Is it us or just me.
Is it we, or just you.
MIND SONG

My mind sings a song...
my brain hums the tune
The rhythm steadily thumps in my heart
My mind sings a song...
At the speed of time
The ironies constant
With words that sometimes shine
A song that I love
A song that I hate
My mind sings a song
I never seem to know the words
Until I see them
Until I live them
Until it is too late
But the melody continues
Faint yet sweet
Happy yet sad
Tragic yet beautiful
I know this song
I belong to this song
I live for this song
I am this song
I am the vessel
Within this symphony
Within my soul